the niagra dream
it all happened suddenly . it should have been a great event in a lifetime.i always thought it would be. we - i had a companion who had seen the niagra maybe many times - set off to the great falls.

the journey was more uneventful than going to work on 101 each workday.niagra appears at you ,just like that, on the left side. it takes no effort to see it. no long lines ,no tickets , no grand gate.

i am used to nature barricaded ,ticketed and reserved . why would niagra be different?
somehow , it seemed to be a let down to have it , right there , with all it's grace , beauty and ferociousness. untamed and unwinding. a beast from the past ,in the present, of the future. wild , yet domesticated . a water-zoo.

a challenge to the senses that titillates and mutilates it with schizophrenic intensity. it asks you a question and with gushing pride answers without waiting. bold without a care like life overflowing knocking you senseless asking for attention daring you to take the leap to your destiny, to plunge into the unknown , playfully creating rainbows , bubbles , the works , leaving everything behind in it's wake.

all waterfalls are measured : height , width , gallons of water . yet , the mind grapples with the fate of each drop.

in a world of Tivo i wanted a button for pause with a label " wait , let me understand what's happening.." and "..continue..".

if inspiration lacks a definition one can find it in this fall ,right next to new york.

time of your life - green day

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

what is "self"?
In very rare cases where a patient has seizures that start independently on either side of the brain and spread, a corpus callosum section may be recommended. Also called corpus callosotomy, this procedure involves severing the fibers connecting the two halves (hemispheres) of the brain. Disconnecting the two hemispheres helps stop the spread of seizures in the brain and may protect some patients from injury caused by seizure-related falls.After surgery, the patient may experience temporary or permanent limitations of speech, movement of certain body parts or behavior alteration.
For more on experiments on these patients : http://www.indiana.edu/~pietsch/split-brain.html

if we take these experiments for a given , we may conclude that the point of cognition - the reason we think of ourselves as an "i" - is really an illusion created by the brain. however, if this is the case, then it's a matter of extension that , when "i" say i ,"i" actually mean the point , so to speak of convergence , of the left and right hemispheres of the brain.but , if this is the case , then all "i " need to do is take this point of convergence and connect it up with ... a chair , a table , a number ,.. the universe! which means , when "i" say i , "i" actually mean the entire universe !

what do you think?

Watching Roger Federer play tennis makes you feel like it's an easy game. Until you get out there and try and hit the same way. But then, so many have voiced this opinion ...to me the way his racket glides will always be : "Poetry in Motion".

This week and the next , lesser gods(!) are playing at the mountain view open. Just watching them makes you want to hit the tennis ball better . So much consistency . I wonder , of course , if i'll ever get to be as good at hitting the tennis ball that way.

Then there was JavaOne, a host of individuals who have worked hard everyday , so others have an easier life. Inventors mix with users and there is no hard line between the two. One inventor is a user to another's invention.Immense talent flowing in all directions. Nothing stands still. The mind is an equipment that hasn't come with a manual. Pity !

The universe is full of gifted individuals and people who have a way with things.Why do we feel excited when others achieve things that are way beyond our own? I think it's because we have a connection. Our bodies and minds are packets of atomicity which we are able to recognize. I think super-beings will be able to get out of these atomic packets and feel the universe as an "I". The point of intersection where "I" is separated from "Them" is very interesting. Vicarious pleasure is impossible without this separation , but, it's also not possible with the separation . Where does this leave "us"? :)

Why do i feel like i am rewinding a tape and playing it again ? Seems like my life has as little knowledge as the lives of all philosophers before me and all those who are going to come after me. This is not a good idea , but , it seems there is a law of conservation of knowledge which we are going to follow.Strictly . sigh !